Once you get to high school, everything's-in middle school, there's
close contact with your parents. High school? There's too much kids,
it's every man for himself in high school. You either come, the teachers
don't have time to run you down. The grade nines, even the grade nines,
they sort of give them their space. And then they take just that little bit
of freedom, the difference between middle school and high school, you
give that little bit of freedom and then they're gone, and that's how bad
things happen. That's how they get involved into gangs, and they start
doing other things. Everything just has that sucking effect, like you get
sucked into it.
I remember the first time I skipped school, I was so scared. But then, it's
like a rush, it's like "Oh, I didn't get in trouble! I'm gonna do it again."
And you do it again…I would sleep. I'm like "Okay, no one's here to
get on my case." (Tammy)
Students commented that the slide into gangs was often tied to feeling that they
couldn't get respect in school, and so look for respect and possibilities on the
street instead. Tammy described her cousins' experience:
I watch my cousins. Three of my cousins were in gangs. So the gang life,
the activities would have them out late at night, so they would have no
time for school. It made no sense for them to get up and go to school,
and even if they did come to school, they were like-can I say shitdisturbers?
It was just, they did what they wanted to do and-they
were more afraid of having that bad-boy rep being taken away from
them if they were to sit down there and say okay, I'm ready to learn.
Cause they're really smart. I have one that's-he's the brightest in
math, but due to the fact that he wants to be in a gang and have that
respect from the street, he doesn't sit down to get the respect from
teachers or from his classmates. He doesn't believe that he has to, 'cause
why when he has the respect of people on the streets?...It's either or-
it's like, I have my bad boy rep, I don't listen to nobody, I do what I
want to do. It's me and my boys, I'm for that. Or, I'm in class, doing
my work, trying to better my future. Usually when they're in gangs,
they usually don't believe that the future for them is bright. Like, they
always believe that they will be held down, and it makes no sense, even
if they were to attempt to learn and make an attempt to better
themselves, they still feel that someone would come along and hold
them down. Mostly they would say the police, but they're so used to-
they do the bad activities, so the police will be on them. They feel like
there's no hope. (Tammy)
Some students read the lack of response from teachers and others in authority
as a message that the school has simply given up on them:
Teachers responded the same way. They knew you didn't want to be
there, so they treated you like you were stupid or shouldn't be there. I've
had teachers comment. The attendance lady would laugh at me when I
would be like "I'm sick, I'm going home," she'd be like "Oh, yeah."
And she wouldn't call my mom or say anything, she'd just let me go
home. And it just became an ongoing thing. (Jennifer Hogan)
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